Thoughts on Social Interaction

• Want to be more confident
  • Why?
    • I talk much less than most in most group conversations
      • Not wanting to interrupt people
      • Self filtering increases as potential risks of saying things increases - also latency of filter
        • Potential benefits of saying things also increases - I am too risk averse
        • Usually risks are pretty low (though feel worse than they actually are), high upside
      • Conversation topic is often something I'm not that interested in
        • Steer the conversation more towards something I'm more interested in?
        • Maybe this makes the conversation worse for some people
      • Sometimes I'll talk more in a group if it's something that I have a lot to say about or I'm with people I feel comfortable around
    • I am sometimes a pretty bad conversationalist with some people
      • Sometimes this may be due to having vastly different interests/just being incompatible people
        • Do I want to present alternative versions of myself in different situations?
      • But sometimes this is because I'm too conservative with the directions of conversation I explore - I never reach the most interesting surface area of their mind
  • How?
    • Act more like the person I want to be (fake it til you make it)
• Alcohol(/sleep deprivation)
  • Sometimes just makes it easier to zone out, time passes by and I'm comfortable
  • When I'm with the right kind of people, can facilitate connection as my internal filter decreases.
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